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A POST FROM A CHAT FRIEND....
(This morning a friend who hasnt been chatting lately sent me this email.-- FOO)
loloooo....tsek dis one...u can post dis sa blog mo if u want pro pls dont tel anyone dat it came from me. tnks! p.s. indi me gumawa nyan ha, post ko lang po yan! btw..cute ng blog mo ha..hi moko sa grupo, miss u all!!
-- from (withheld)
Dear Boo,
it's been a while but all this time you never left my mind. I don't have the courage to tell you this but i know i have to for me to move on and get on with my life. All this time it's you that ive been thinking, the thoughts of you are always here in my mind. I know i was the one to be blamed because i did not showed you the love that you deserved. I keep on denying and ignoring all the good things you've done. I keep myself from falling, but all this time, i knew i have fallen. I was just so stupid not to say it to you, i was so scared to take the chances and commit for the fear that i might get hurt.
I admit i doubted you and not taken seriously the relations that we had, but you should know that i was only trying to weigh things out, trying to see the reality behind the worries i have. I was so afraid of commitment and feel that you deserved someone better than me, yet, the sad part is, when i knew i was ready to take the risk no matter what it takes, you have decided to let go of the love you thought you had for me. You got tired and left. I knew it was my fault, but i know i could not do anything about it now. I payed the price and i've learned from my mistakes. I should have told you and showed that i do love you, but i guess, it does not matter anymore. You have your own life and so mine. Our world are so different now and it's hard to make them work as one.
You have left an emptiness inside me and the pain still lingers. but i knew i have to move on. find myself again and accept the fact that were not meant to be and should let you go.
I know it isn't easy to do this, the memories are too many and i know they are here to stay, but i have to say goodbye and let go of the pain that is tearing me apart. I have learned from my mistakes but i'm still thankful that once in my life, i met someone like you. I just want you to be happy and hope you'll find the right person that was truly meant for you.
Thank you for coming into my life, although the span of time weve been together maybe short. I know you made a mark in me that shall take forever to forget. Thanks for the lessons and for the memories because somehow i know they were worth the pain.
-- Author Unknown
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